{Sigh}

The kids are in bed, I am listening to some great music, trying to find some inspiration on some of the sb blogs I've become addicted to as of late. There are so many things I would love to fill my days with, and they really aren't what I am doing right now. There are so many practical things that need to get done - laundry, cooking, housecleaning, organizing - that take so much time. I want to sing, write music, create, have a bit of time to think. It is so ironic that 5 years ago I would have given my eye teeth for this life, and now that I have been so blessed (and yes, I do feel blessed) with these 3 amazing and beautiful kids, I find myself wishing that I could just go away so I can do things that feed my soul; I'm done feeding everyone else. And then I see these other women in the exact same situation as me, and they are publishing/editing/designing for CK. I wonder sometimes what is wrong with me - I feel so overwhelmed by so many things...I can't even keep my scrapbook room clean, let alone even think about my next project. I know what I need to do - stop trying to keep up with the Jones' (or BH or AE or EK) and just enjoy my kids - this stage of life will pass soon enough and then I will be wishing for these days again. Ah, the irony of the human mind...